Life: perceptive

You know, you have gained experience when you start living in your own company. When you don't expect from people to be your side always.  When you don't cry in your own company. When you realise how fast life changes. When you realise that it is OK to be alone, no one has that much time to judge you. When you have come out of your comfort zone and is sewing world on its own. Because I realized all these things after my friends left me alone in my hard time, and I am very grateful to them that I wouldn't have become like this if they would be with me always. Now, I am happy even when I see a people in groups enjoying, but I must say it was hard in the starting. Bit eventually when you see that you have to survive this for your loved ones then you adapt new ways and I did the same. Now I never feel loneliness in being alone. I enjoy my time. I see that time flies when you enjoy being with yourself. 

It's OK that you don't have people with you. That's completely normal as we all have to be alone in life and we have to die alone also. One must try to see how this new change can affect their life in a good way. In my starting days of being alone, I used to think how I was happy with everyone around me but now I just remember past and smile bitterly that how naive I was to think that it lasts forever. No, external happiness or pleasure that is coming from others is not a permanent joy. If you are happy internally in your own space then that's my friend is the biggest thing in the world. One can have a ocean of things and still be not content. And one can be happy in a miserable life due to state of mind.